CHRISTMAS ANXIETY

I remember as a kid (at some point) living with my gran -ma, i was always excited about Christmas. I think it was also because our neighbours/friends were always excited about it. We could feel the tension as parents talk and panic about Christmas presents for the kids and they talk about how the price of things rise in Nigeria during the festive period which is different here in England.

In England things sometimes are discounted and its a perfect time for shops to get rid of some stock.

Well, back home, kids would whisper to each other, talking about the presents they got from their parents (even if they’ve been warned to keep it a secret till Xmas day) which is usually cloths and i kid you not, it’s what we always look forward to.

But as i grew older something changed about Christmas. It gradually started becoming less exciting and I always cant wait for it to be over.

One of the reason is, i lost my grandma. She was our everything who made everything magical and beautiful, and i became a working child (story for another day).

Well, i grew up and moved, my younger ones moved to other part of the world and Christmas has never been the same. Although i’ve made Christmas my own way and i appreciate it but i always cant wait for the madness, tension and rush to be over.

Also one thing i must tell you about Christmas in England is, its so beautiful. Its crazy how people go all out for decoration

The dedication, time and effort being put into decoration is crazy. Sometimes we drive round to see crazy decoration. Also as Nigerian i would say ‘the Nepa bill oh’, lol! meaning, electricity bill.

I’ve learnt one thing lately, to always cherish the past but make my future beautiful. I am learning to love and celebrate my own way in the simplest way, also give love.. i.e. send cards, text messages, gift, make calls e.t.c. I’ve felt the love given back to me as i received messages saying thanks for the card. it felt good and felt like a bear hug.

Remember this, Memories sometimes make us who we are. Enjoy the little things because one day you’ll realise those little things were big things.

Thank you for reading and this is my first blog post..

Bose